Surfacing, at last

I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that things have been even close to easy lately. I've been literally drowning in self-pity, doubt, and all out depression. There was really no one trigger that caused it, but there rarely is when it comes to clinical depression.
Let's just say that this is not the life I signed on for. I have the option of doing two things:
1.) I can continue moping and not caring about anything
2.) I can accept that change is a constant part of life, and I just need to roll with it.
I have chose option one for the last month or so and I can see that it is NOT working for me. So I guess it's time to try the alternative.
For every piece of baggage I let go of, it's easier to kick towards the surface. I am still drowning but the light is getting a bit brighter above me. Hopefully soon I will surface and be able to take a deep breath at last.
It's time to cut out people that are toxic to me and my goals. You should never have to apologize for who you are. I have been doing that way too much lately, and it stops now. I'm taking my power back!
As always, thanks for listening and God bless!