So maybe I was a bit too harsh earlier. I have no right to get mad at something beyond my control, it is a HUGE waste of my time and energy. Plus it isn't like I should care. He was in my long list of "Mr. Wrongs"
I am fine with "Mr Right now" I have finally detached myself from my feelings so I am feeling a lot better than I did. I was a moron to try so hard to find happiness somewhere other than through myself. Been sticking around the house and having fun with my kiddos. Also am well rested for the first time in two months.
I am just fine with just having a good friend like I do now. I am tired of looking for more than I can handle. I think using someone for their body and walking away is the best I can offer anyone right now.
As always, thanks for listening and God bless!