Sunday, May 23, 2010

My last blackout.....

Well today is day #1!
I did not fall of the wagon, more like I FACEPLANTED! I had 17 days off alcohol and met someone who messed me up sideways. So today I am getting sober again. I am coming off a 3 day blackout and have NO idea what happened!
Why do I abuse myself like I do? There must be deeper issues, but therapy is WAY too expensive!
I started this blog to work through my past, but the present is just as big of a nightmare! I am still sober and sick as all hell! So there will be no posting for at least a day, the shakes make it hard to type!
I hope this time it takes, pray for me please? Weird coming from a diehard agnostic, but if God can help? Would welcome it!
BTW gotta give a shout out to Abbey, who thinks I am interesting enough to write a paper about?!
As always thanks for listening and God bless!

3 comments:

  1. well babe this is one agnostic whose prayer was just answered...

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  2. Still cheering for you. You can do this!

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  3. I keep mentioning to you that most alcoholics find that that cannot quit by themselves. The way that worked for me and for many others was Alcoholics Anonymous - not just going to a few meetings but getting a good sponsor to help walk you through the 12 Steps.

    Remember that description of insanity - repeating the same actions and expecting different results. Admitting that you can't quit on your own is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of admiting that you have a problem that you can't lick on your own.

    I know many people who have recovered, and some of them literally ended up living on the streets and lost everything, including their families, before figuring this out. I pray that you don't have to go that far.

    Many people have also found that that a 30 day in-patient treatment program can be very helpful as well.

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