This is going to be a quick one, but thought I should update you guys. Chris and I have made up our minds. I am going to sign the plea.
There is a tiny chance I could beat this case if I took it to trial, but I am unwilling to take that risk. In 3 years Allison will be almost 10, Brayden will be almost 13, not to mention I can't ask Chris to wait for me for triple the time we have been together. It wouldn't be fair to him.
Not sure when I have to go yet, but it might be as soon as Wednesday. Something occurred to me the other day. My lawyer said my plea deadline was extended to June 2nd, but said I had to let him know what I wanted to do by Tuesday (June 1st.) So this has me worrying that my actual plea and sentencing will be in 5 days.
I won't lie to you and say I am not scared shitless. I am not built for incarceration. I feel like I was put on this earth to help other people and maybe help them laugh when times get too tough. I am a lover, not a fighter. I talk as if I am tough, but really I feel like a frightened litlle girl. The uncertainty of what is going to happen is killing me.
I want to take a moment to welcome my new readers from twitter and favstar. I took a while to share this blog with you guys, but there are two sides to jamieramone. This is my serious one.
As always, thanks for listening and God bless!